sad tears.

heart full.

head full.

it’s spinning forth.

in swirls of darkness and snowflakes.

the dark doorway.

my Joseph Seibel boots aren't sure.

i take halting steps toward it.

& with shaky fingers open the door.

a still form.

lying quiet.

i approach & lay a soft hand on her shoulder.

her blue eyes flutter open.

my heart pounds & i lean over.

whispering, "Katherine beautiful"

she crinkles her brow.

a broken language she struggles to tell me.

she doesn't remember me.

i realize what she is saying & my tears fall.

fast & hard. heart broken.

my dearest Katherine. late nights setting puzzle & eating cookies. holding hands & talking about cows. & her tiny body lying straight in this hospital bed is not right.

i hug her. tears mixing. she kisses me on the cheek & her eyes close.

i whisper merry christmas & back out the door.

love u Katherine ♡