alb day #4

i stayed up late last night.

who knows why.

it was fun and VERY worth it.

tina is on nights so i stayed up and watched her talk on the phone.

it was silly.

shes dramatic and laughs lots.

perhaps someday you all will know her.

i slept better then i ever have last night.

usually i wake up at weird times and cant fall back asleep.

but last night i slept through the whole night all the way to 7:30.

it was the best.

alb day. number 4.

God answered prayers and sent these big kids to school.

they come home at 2:30 and im gunna try and have enough activities planned so that they completely forget to get angry. you can pray it works.

i know you all pray and that comforts me.

and when he was entered into a ship, his disciples followed him.

and behold, there arose a great tempest in the sea, insomuch that the ship was covered with the waves: but he was asleep.

and his disciples came to him and awoke him saying lord save us we perish.

and he saith unto them, why are ye fearful, o ye of little faith?

then he arose, and rebuked the winds and the sea; and there was a great calm.

but the men marveled, saying, what manner of man is this, that even the winds and the sea obey him!

thankyou for those verses.

as far as my responsibilities today its pretty easy.

im kitchen assistant and on alb day we have cereal for breakfast.

and cold sandwiches for lunch.

and then we get pizza ordered for supper.

and we use paperware all day so no dishes.

i have play duty from 2:15 to 4:00.

this morning is white.

yesterdays snow is desperately clinging to the rocks.

new mexicos sun is fighting with the cold.

the cold is refreshing. pushing out the dust.

i got alot of mail yesterday.

it was so fun.

makes me cry every time i get mail and read your precious letters.

its like receiving a hug and courage for the week.

i love it.

i miss you like the sky misses the mountains.

its a terrified kind of love.

empty eyes searching for more,

sometimes i wonder if its fake.

they want to break us.

tear us down.

but we have God, and we stand strong.

its not about our day.

its about thiers.

it doesnt matter if they pull our hair,

and bite our skin till theres blood.

it doesnt matter if they hate us.

we are here to let them live.

give them sunshine.

tell them of jesus.

his body rigid.

screaming.

and then he goes limp in my arms.

his skinny 9 year old body,

so broken.

his tears land on my torn yellow dress.

he sobs.

his big black eyes so scared.

so confused.

he holds my hand,

and we walk back to the Legos to build an unidentified flying object.

tonight after this day is over..

and God has answered all our prayers.

then the new girl will walk in.

her name is Brecken penner.

and that means im 4th girl up.

i love that.

its almost sounding close to half done.

and then i will come home to summer.

horses running over lush green grass.

weeding the garden with my best mom.

swimming with my friends.

sleeping on madis balcony watching the stars.

going to the porcupines with tanjo and dak.

getting tims with tiny.

talking way to late with ainsley.

ride horse at midnight with hannah.

oh my.

i cant wait.

i could go on and on with that list.

and on and on.

but obviously it would bore you all.

anyways. moral of the story im surviving.

and i miss you.

and thats all.

the end.

all of my hugs and kisses and prayers.

xo, ginger

p.s. i have 18 more weeks.