many lyrics are written in that booklet,
many whispers that you will never hear.
kind of like,
their hearts.
you will never hear the half,
unless they become yours.
i followed my boots out here,
the house was trapping me.
i felt alone.
i felt tired of being alone.
but there was no where else to go,
then alone.
again.
because when i am hungry,
i am filled with words.
& when the words come,
they come in rivers.
those whispers i wrote, while desperately trying to catch my breath. i was not inside myself. i was somebody else. my eyes looked into the mirror. cold. scared. not me.
not ginger.
it seems today i broke.
the tears came uncontrolled.
i missed you more then i ever had,
in my whole life.
i missed normal.
all hope faded.
but then i remembered that this,
was all for love.
& i ran to the horses & they loved my fears,
away.
they nibbled my scarf reminding me to smile.
& then i came inside & wrote countless pages, that i will never share with you. but i emptied my mind. & gave it to my God.
my eyes are swollen but i feel better. God is in control. and no matter how much i miss you, he will always be in control. & i can trust.
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