to be in love

i don't know how big the new mexico sky is..

but however far away i will be,

I realize you will never be far away.

I will be thinking about you.

all of my days.

I will see your eyes through the stars,

I will see your heart as I write my love.

I will see your affection,

in the navajo childrens hugs.

I will be thinking about you,

all of my days.

the new mexico sky is big..

but I will still see your stars.

the snow is dripping from the red hip roof barn.

I am sitting here in my faded levis

I feel really tall

I feel big

my childhood has slipped from my grasp

revealing future

adventure

my feet reach the stirrups

& my hands reach my daddies

this is normal

the goodbyes are beginning to be real.

& I am feeling the ache.

I feel as I am a weakling,

to leave for 6 months is a small thing.

but I am so in love with you all.

so in love with your laughter

your late night parties

of only our kindred spirits

braiding into the night.

I wave goodbye to cousins.

it makes my heart hurt.

tiny children wrap thier arms around my legs.

we will miss you jessi they say with squinting eyes.

my tears are falling now.

to be one with the land

drink it's waters

to sleep in the shadows,

of its dancing trees

to smell the new

air

to bond with the hearts

it has given

I am f

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