& i'm drowning
flailing around in this river of uncertainty
it's not a big deal my head is screaming
it was only 6 months & this place is normal
but my hearts wants to be back
I dont know these familiar faces
there's too many events to scrawl into my planner
idk how to be in on this
social
communicating
world
& I don't want to hurt you but I will
why do the words not come when I sit in front of your smiling faces
& so I just watch my niece
smiling big
pretending to be comfortable
emotion is dropping onto my desk
my tummy feels nervous
maybe it changed me more then I realized
I close my eyes.
red sand is blowing against us
we are running
& laughing
the kids are happy
the sun hot
it's just gallup
Oh ginger. That last part. I could cry for you.