t. j. t.

sticky with cold tractor.

friend with messy blonde hair.

cows with so much snow on their backs.

& the joy.

the talks about these good moments.

these moments nobody but us knows.

these cow love tractor snow friend moments.

she smiles and blows on her hands.

wool mittens falling and

reaching for the wet dirty floor of the tractor.

that friend moves to the far away land.

&.

when the tears stream down your face

when you lose something you can't replace.

when you get what you want.

but not what you need.

& when ur so tired.

but you can't sleep.

when the lyrics to songs pull your heart

an unfinished ripped feeling of missing you,

pebbles fall to the water,

the noise echoes off the rock.

the kitty pounces.

a smile. slowly. unreal.

the reflection in the mirror lies.

paintings come alive & the fog lowers.

speaking her mind.

running through this field of honey.

slowly. unreal.

the cold freezes eyes shut.

& kisses you .. to sleep.

we miss her when she's gone.

but she will return.

give her time.