cold water

a thousand dips into the cold water

a thousand muscles

cramped

a thousand aching feelings

the water stretching in front

pushing on

if your looking for love

raise your hand

blood pouring and puddling

dripping from his black leg

black legs pumping

leaving

blood splatters

I am skinny

I am weak

floating away

watching blood

my legs are shrivelling

my muscles are leaving me

the sky is white.

my moccasin feet are following

the direction of the wind

pulling me

my dress is hugging my legs

tangling in the tall grass

I stoop to pick the wish stick

from the dry earth

& whispering my wishes

the wind takes it into flight

away

out of my reach

all of the moments that make me think sad thoughts. all of the moments that make me think happy thoughts. happy. or sad. all of them.

for some reason make me cry.

is the sentiment that boils inside a sin?

it creates emotions

tears

when I am standing on my hill

watching my mountains

leaning into the air they are giving me

when I am breathing in the past

& the future.

when I am soaking in a moment

where only me & God are embracing

just us.

alone.

& his world.

perhaps it's ok to cry.

all of my life since I was tiny

the sentiment fights

my daddy walked into my arms last night

he grew 2 inches

he gained 20 years

he is a new man.

thankyou germany ♡

the tears soaked my pijamas

the happy thankful tears

the tiny child squats among wildflowers

sticky fingers clutch a daisy

thrusting it towards me

tears

love

thank you child

his black body shimmering in the sun

his strong steps towards me

his neck bending

embracing

hot breathe on my face

the horses that love me

tears

love

thank you jesus

& when I walk into my church

the singing

only God can explain this one

the extreme peace

pulling the tension from my body

filling me with pure love

tears

my mountains are watching.

filling me with the same awe.

thank you jesus.

xo, ginger