a beautiful puzzle

emotion.

it bubbles

boils & finally spills

creating a mess of tears

& clouds of kleenex

mixed with the knowing

if you have grief

it is a blessing

grief means you had love

before the grief

rivers wind around my finger

nature calls

I answer

the frost matching

my feelings

my boots crunch the snow

the snow welcoming my boots.

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to practice thankfulness.

God. & when you fear, but think of God, fear no more.

I am so thankful for monty.

for his love for me even when i'm not that loveable.

my family. the reason I cry when we drive away from fishburn.

for yazzie. her grin is mine. her energy flying through her paws to the snow when I have none.

my childhood.

grandma jennie fern. her example. I will try to be more like you. i'll see u in heaven.

horses. they taught me a lot.

the little cabin my husband gave me. the place I feel at home.

simmonette river. hot sand under my toes.

our little mini cooper.

being a wife is fun.

i'm very thankful for monty's parents.

they do so much for us.

all the people in crooked creek who show me kindness. friends are important.

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my day is empty of activity.

I sleep long

& when my eyes open the room is bright with sunshine.

city life is so different.

feet stomping down the hallway echoes through the wall.

the train going by.

children across the street.

the continuous buzz of human everyday life.

& mine. a quiet day.

she asked me, do you still write?

I do I think. in my heart.

long scrawling letters

page after page in my heart.

today I read a few chapters in Matthew.

I love how the bible just offers you a bit of encouragement each day

& then you're good again for a while.

it's like our daily charge maybe.

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when you have mountains to climb,

people you love leave you, neglect you

they don't show you the love they used to

your life feels slow

thoughts drag you down

there's maybe a constant rain cloud

there may be sickness

have heart child

your life is not slipping by

& you cannot lose faith

this is only a chapter

tie a knot & hang on

God will do the navigating.

& he will make a beautiful puzzle,

with all your broken pieces.

I love you.

xo, ginger