•

today my head has felt so empty.

so many thoughts yet none of them are even thoughts. does that make sense?

i don't know.

i over did it with my knee last weekend. it just doesn't bend & it hurts something awful.

so today i sat in a chair & wrote lists and asked people for their address's. with my leg up. & ice.

sucks being handicapped.

but they day is beautiful & the mountains bold.

i sit @ the table with my favourite mom & my favourite sister & we write many addresses down.

chocolate & almonds. with tea in tiny pottery.

happy smiles. painful knees.

long phone talks with people u adore.

but then the evening gets long. the companions go to the city. & you are alone. so u stare out the window. watching. waiting for something. the mountains are too still. waiting. but you don't know what. the music u turn on sounds too loud and hard in this house. those kids that don't know jesus. would they be afraid in this moment?

he wraps his arms around her & pressing his finger on her beating heart she breaths slow. the star falls & she feels the peace.

being alone with this house & this jesus that holds her when she's alone. but she is never alone.